breaking the habit tonight

Memories consume
> Like opening the wound
> I'm picking me apart again
> You all assume
I'm safe here in my room
> Unless I try to start again
>
> I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
> Cuz inside I realize
> That I'm the one confused
>
> I don't know what's worth fighting for
> Or why I have to scream
> I don't know why I instigate
> And say what I don't mean
> I don't know how I got this way
> I know it's not alright
> So I'm breaking the habit
> I'm breaking the habit tonight
>
Clutching my cure
> I tightly lock the door
> I try to catch my breath again
> I hurt much more
> Than anytime before
> I have no options left again
>
> I dont want to be the one
The battles always choose
> Cuz inside I realize
> That I'm the one confused
>
> I don't know what's worth fighting for
> Or why I have to scream
> I don't know why I instigate
> And say what I don't mean
> I don't know how I got this way
> I'll never be alright
> So, I'm breaking the habit
> I'm breaking the habit tonight
>
> I'll paint it on the walls
Cuz I'm the one at fault
> I'll never fight again
> and this is how it ends
>
> I don't know what's worth fighting for
> Or why I have to scream
> But now I have some clarity
> to show you what I mean
> I don't know how I got this way
> I'll never be alright
> So, I'm breaking the habit
> I'm breaking the habit
> Breaking the habit tonight!