Your Congratulations

i wouldn´t have compromised as much
so much of myself for fear of
having you hating me
I would´ve sung so loudly
it would´ve cracked myself!
I became self-conscious
of anything exuberant
i wouldn´t have sold myself short
i wouldn´t have kept my eyes
glued to the ground
if i had´ve known my invisibility
would not make a difference
i would ´ve run around screaming proudly
at the top of my voice
i wouldn´t have said it was in fact luck
i´m taking idealism here
i would not have been so deprecating
i wouldn´t have cowered
for fear of having my eyes scratched out!
i wouldn´t have cut my comfort off
i wouldn´t have feigned needlessness
i would not have discredited
every one of their compliments
it was your approval i wanted
your congratulations