I Was Hoping

As we were talking outside, it was cold
We were shivering yet warmed by the subject matter
My wife is in the next room
We've been having troubles, you know?
Please don't tell her or anyone, but I need to talk to somebody
You said "Wouldn't it be a shame if I knew how great I was
Five minutes before I died? I'd be filled with such regret
Before I took my last breath"
And I said "You're willing to tell me this now, and you're not going to die any
time soon"
And I said "I haven't been eating chicken or meat or anything"
And you said "Yes, but you've been wearing leather" and laughed
And said "We're at the top of the food chain, and yes, you're still a fine woman"
And I cringed

I was hoping, I was hoping we could heal each other
I was hoping, I was hoping we could be raw together

We left the restaurant where the head waiter (in his 60's) said "Goodbye sir,
thank you for your business, sir, you're successful and established, sir,
and we like the frequency with which you dine here, sir, and your money"
And when I walked by "Thank you, too, dear"
I was all pigtails and cords, and there was a day when I would've said
something like "Hey, dude, I could buy and sell this place, so kiss it - I, too,
once thought I was owed something"

I was hoping, I was hoping we could challenge each other
I was hoping, I was hoping we could crack each other up

I, too, thought that when proved wrong I lost somehow
I, too, once thought life was cruel
It's a cycle, you think I'm withdrawing and gulit-tripping you
I think you're insensitive and I don't feel heard
And I said "Do you believe we are fundamentally judgemental?
Fundamentally evil?"
And you said "Yes"
I said "I don't believe in revenge; in right or wrong; good or bad"
You said "Well, what about the man that I saw handcuffed in the
emergency room bleeding after beating his kid, and
she threw a shoe at his head?"
I think that what he did was wrong and I would've had a hard time feeling
compassion for him
I had to watch my tone for fear of having you feel judged

I was hoping, I was hoping we could dance together
I was hoping, I was hoping we could be creamy together.