Bother

Wish I was too dead to cry.
My self-affliction fades.
Stones to throw at my creator.
Masochists to which I cater.

You don't need to bother; I don't need to be.
I'll keep slipping farther,
But once I hold on, I won't let go 'til it bleeds.

Wish I was too dead to care,
If indeed I cared at all.
Never had a voice to protest,
So you fed me shit to digest.
I wish I had a reason; my flaws are open season.
For this, I gave up trying.
One good turn deserves my dying.

You don't need to bother; I don't need to be.
I'll keep slipping farther,
But once I hold on, I won't let go 'til it bleeds.

Wish I'd died instead of lived.
A zombie hides my face.
Shell forgotten with its memories.
Diaries left with cryptic entries.

And you don't need to bother; I don't need to be. (I don't need to be.)
I'll keep slipping farther,
But once I hold on, I won't let go 'til it bleeds.

(You.)
You don't need to bother; I don't need to be. (I don't need to be.)
I'll keep slipping farther,
But once I hold on, (once I hold on,)... I'll never live down my deceit.